Wow what a week. My mother got a head ache on monday got flue-like symptoms on tuesday went to the hospital that night got airlifted to a different hospital the next day turns out she had a major blood clot in the middle of her brain where the spinal fluid drains out of her brain. 5 prosesures from tuesday-friday. Friday the clot is mostly gone after a minor stroke and for the first time that week she opens her eyes to look at her three children stand beside her hospital bed. I cannot thanks everyone and their brother for their prayers. I dont mean to preach but i dotn think that she woudl have really made it if not for a supernatual power. yey.. really fucking long week.. tiem to go relax and go to a sith/jedi battle. First party of the fall.
Much love

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Time really sucks.... Waking up feeling like your running out of time. 2 people died around where i lived yesterday. Their time ran out... I was talkign with someone very close to me about how i thought there was free will but still life is predestend.. Religion is confused. I aint ganna preech i just find it fan fucking tastic that people say soemthing then controdict it with in the next sentance. "god wanted to be with coco so it was his time to leave, so live today to the fullest." WHAT!? God has set a time for coco to leave us here... Cocos life was set in stone from the start but yet we have a chance to live today liek we wish. No ... its hard to explain.. how can we change if god already decided everything before? I'm done ranting lol It made so much more sence at 11-12 last night talkign to my Abra under the moon.

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i found this as a deviation someone made, and i thought it was good, so i want to share it,
Girl's confession
[ ] I do wear make up
[x] When I walk by mirrors, I can't help but look
[ ] I wear a bra to bed (do you REALLY need to know that?)
[x] I wear toe nail polish
[ ] If its pink, i have to get it
[x] I have cried at a movie theater
[x] I've purposely talked to a guy my boyfriend didnt like
[ ] I love chocolate
[x] Getting flowers still makes me smile especially for no reason
[ ]I've wrecked a car
[x] I can't put mascara on without opening my mouth
[x] I'd do anything for a special guy
[x] I love cuddling
[x] Johnny Depp is sexy
[x] Gotten Detention
[x] I love to laugh
[x] I've flashed/mooned someone/some people
[x] I like Rock
[ ] I like rap
[x] I like Techno
[ ] I carry a purse everywhere
[x] I've been called a party girl
[ ] I like to get tipsy
[x] carry my cell phone at all times
[ ] Do own a spice girls CD
[ ] Do own a Britney Spears CD(Many!!)
[ ] Football isn't boring
[ ] I love athletic boys
[x] I love skater boys
[x] Sweet guys are better than hot guys
[x] But I prefer sweet hot guys
[x] I've been called a tease
[ ] Lip gloss is WAY better than lipstick
[x] I'm a bitch. Deal with it. (Sometimes.)
[x] I play video games, even when there are other people around
[x] My friends are the best, and they're important to me
[x] I am wild and crazy
[x] I have liked more than one guy at a time
[x] Really want to be with a certain someone right now
[x] Really want to be next to someone right now

Zil

3rd day of spring break. Monday april second. abolutly nothing going on. Ive been pretty apathetic for about half a week now, that cant be good. It'd great how the peopel closest to you dont even notice the big changes but only the little ones. I dont mind. He dont have to know whats going on. He can live in his simple bliss of his games. Oh well. i got what really matters: loved ones. If you actually read this crap, yey. I'll give ya a cookie next time i see you. If not. oh well there isnt much for me to say. This vacation is ganna be SLOW. Time to catch up on english and my doodle book seems to be kinda lonely. Hoorah for time waisters. I think im ganna leave on this note: I cant feel my fingers! (tiem to go turn up the heat and get soem food into my system)

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