i love you, memories
i love the people ive said goodbye this last year
i love the people i have met too
i love the friends that have stuck by
i love you, everyone that ive gotten into a disagreement this last year
i love the pictures ive taken, all 36 folders of photos
i love the songs ive listen to to help me get though the times
i love all the times ive spent doing useless nonproductive shit
i love the best conversations EVER in cwis and dustin's cars
i love being able to say i had a better year than the last
i love having a smile on my face when the clock struck 12.
i love knowing that things will be just a little more interesting from now on
i love feeling that i'm finally moving on in my life
i love the promises ive made for change.
i love god's gifts he has given to all
i love knowing that 2007 is over

i love you, memories

this month is a time of bogus bull shit money spending bafoons love to call x-mas.
Im not a bible thumper or nothin i just think its abso-fucking-lutely dumb to spend as much money as possible before debt on stuff no one needs. (this coming from a teenage middle class white girl) See when my boyfriend of over half a year asked me what i wanted for Christmas i say simple "to see you smile and cuddle up with you on a couch and watch a movie" I want love. easy simple. something you cant put in a box but isn't hard to find. I dont want a new ipod cause its the latest thing i don't want guitar hero 3 nor fancy pretties to put around my neck wrist or fingers. I don't care. material objects get me nothing. Isnt December 25th to celebrate the birth of the one who saved us all? yes its a reminder to be nicer to everyone around its a good time to spend with family and friends but does that mean you have to go the whole 16 extra miles with the lights and the tree? turns out that dude in the red suit that leaves shit under my fake tree melting from the major amount of little colored lights was really just my dad having way to much time on his hands.
so all i really want to say about this holiday x-mas is enjoy it not over exaggerate it. when i have kids I'm not taking him/her to sit on some douche's lap at the mall just for them to get this idea that some old fat dude can break the laws of physics and fit down a little chimney to leave a bus load of toys under some fake tree in the middle of my fucking living room. Spend the day remembering the good times with family (meaning don't star fights about something thats totally not worth the trouble) you don't need to spend the most money to be the most popular on of the family and don't forget why you are celebrating. Its for joy not materials so sit down shut up and enjoy the freakin eggnog.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

<3 zil

Saturday's are great. Today is great. Right now is great. a few hours and things will be even better

Abra is comin to come pick me up at 4:30 ish and meet my dad finally.
It'll be so nice to see him again. It may have only been 2 weeks as apposed to 2 months but still... it sucked.
AND! Last night i went over to My sister's and we did each others hair. My red bangs went to pink, now they are bright green. I'll post pictures once i get my camera back from her apartment. It came out weird like not all a solid color but i dotn care... ill fix it when i have money for dye.

I have to clean my house up a bit and stuff so i have to leave with this.

"If at first you dont succeed then your obviously not chuck norris"

<3

<>ZiL<>

the fall makes every thing pretty. well almost.
Being sick blows, missing Abra blows
seeing Justin blows, being cold blows...

But none of that really matters right now.

Nope none of it really matters, i have it easy.
Sowhat is my Abra is living 184 miles away for collage...
so wht if my voice is shit? so what if i need to wear an extra jacket?
noone cares.

Im living life as the leaves fall.

<3

Things seems to be looking pretty good. My mid term came in;
Algebra A
Biology B-
Art Survey B+
English c+
French B+
Weight lifting C
Us History B

Best damn grades ive had in years.
Yesterday Cindy and i left Dixon at 7:15 am and got to U of I at 10:30 then arrived at Eastern a 11:30. Abra, Billie Jo, Cindy and i spent he whole day just wondering around. I missed Dustin so much, it was so nice to see him again. Today the youth group is goin over to coco's family's house. Just to check in on them, see how their doin. I should probably get doin my homework but it can wait. I'm glad to have my computer finally back. Woot -does a little dance-